I CANNOT GET YOU OUT OF MY HEAD!

 

I CANNOT GET YOU OUT OF MY HEAD!

I’ve tried so hard to wash you away

Yet here you are still in my head and heart

It’s still tearing me apart

I just want to sleep

Sleep, sleep

Sleep the sleep without you

It feels like you are still here

So very near

So very close

I need to know the reason

The reasons for your leaving 

You’ve left me grieving, grieving

With your leaving

My inner smile has gone

My outer smile has gone

The world is so, so cruel

So cruel, so cruel

You were this world of mine

All the time

Every day, every night

You made me feel special

Special, special

Your kisses drove me wild

Your caresses drove me wild

You touched my inner soul

My inner soul

Now I cannot get you out of my head

Now I feel dead!

Dead, dead

Lifeless, lifeless

Drowning, drowning with grief

We were not just lovers

We were best friends

I cannot face this world alone

Alone, alone

Now it seems that I was in the wrong 

How? How?

When? When?

And now it seems that you never cared

All that you were bothered with was what you wanted to hear!

Now the summer sun has gone

The dream has disappeared

You took my heart

Tore it right apart

The summer sun now burns my skin

The water no longer cleansing my skin

You took my heart without considering

Oh, oh what a fool

Fool to let it happen

I’ll get over you

I’ll get over you

Let the snow fall

Let this mind freeze

Let this mind go free

Let the skies fall

Let the snows fall

Let the skies continually be grey

And this heart goes away

I’ll always remember you

I’ll know exactly what you’ll say

Leave, leave

All the pain where there is nothing to gain

You say my tears will dry

Then you walk on by

With no good bye

I thought we had the good life!

A good thing, a good thing

Our own sweetest of things

Oh I cannot get you out of my head

Will you ever know what you have done to me?

You made me so, so happy

Now there is only darkness

A stark, stark darkness

Listen, listen to this heart

That has been broken right apart

Will this heart find its rightful home?

I’m going, going to surely try

I know that I’m going to miss your embraces

Yet surely know that you’ll never come back to me

Oh boy I cannot get you out of my head

All our yesterdays

Gone, gone

It another time and space

Gone, gone

But never forgotten

© Teresa Helen Joseph Nelson

13^th February 2021

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I'M A DREAMER (New Poem)

 

I’M A DREAMER

I’m a believer

And any dream I will retrieve

Retrieve for prosperity

Not for the riches that money can buy

But for the comforts, that’ll help me pass this by

I’ll stretch and pose

But I’ll hold my head up with poise

It’ll always be always

Loving, loving you

Through and through

This stage is not mine

My stage is elsewhere

Where there is more care and care

Opportunities

Chances

Prospects

Openings

And the biggest of them all the breaks

Breaks from the heartaches

I have forgiven myself!

All the wrongs that I have done

The grudges now dissipated

And all I now need is just to be friends

Nothing more or less

This disheveled life is free from strife

Only because I have filled in the cracks

The fissures 

The fractures

Fractures that have seen me broken

Battered and shattered

And now all I feel is freedom

Freedom to be me

So here I stand believing in the future

Believing that one day

You won’t forget to pass this way

The real, real you!

Not the one that is full of pride

The one who is not afraid to hide

Hide behind an ego

Egotistically puffed up and out

There is no going back to the start

Are you still searching?

Are you surviving without me?

Is it cold in your limelight?

Is there someone to ease the pain?

We cannot go back to the start

Then let’s make a new start

Where we can remain friends

I truly believe we can be

If only, if only

I change, change

I’ve lost the trust

What comes round, comes round

Lost the trust with you

How do I ever get that back with you?

If I let you in would I could i?

If I let you in, you would need to prove

Prove to me that I can trust you

You broke that trust!

With broken trust throughout the years

See it is just me letting you know how I feel

But I am tentatively learning

That huge word

TRUST

Yet I am a dreamer

A believer

Composing my composure

With all my emotions 

Hoping and wishing

That we can be friends

And stay friends

© Teresa Helen Joseph-Nelson

7^th  February 2021

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